I wonder.... did I make a difference?
I know that God puts us where he needs us for the time that he chooses. I believe that He placed me at my school for such a time as... as what I just finished.
I have to think....
Did I make Him smile with what I time I had here? Did I do my best? Did I make Him proud? Did I show His love to my students, my coworkers, my kids' parents and my bosses? Did I complain too much? Did I help to make His plans work or did He have to make a new one because I chose to follow my 'brilliant' idea....which most likely, ended up not being brilliant? Was I someone who made a difference? Was my time at school a blessing for others?
I sure hope so. I have learned so much. So much about myself, my God, how I am wired to do and what I am wired NOT to do. Ha! Ha! I am going to miss not working with my kiddos but maybe there is a new group of kids. For such a time....
The funny thing is that I NEVER thought I would leave teaching. I think others are surprised too! But I feel a peace about leaving. About changing professions. About the move. I always imagined myself one of those teachers that people talk about like... "She has been teaching for HOW MANY YEARS!? She is crazy!!!" You know the one who has 18 million books, reproducibles, posters from half a decade ago, and 43 million absoluetly hilarious stories. Yup. That's who I thought I would end up being. But apparently, God has bigger and better things. That's kind of exciting?!?! No? 
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